When the Rain Comes

This blog is about to take a much more personal turn.

I stroll the baby isles at Target longing for the day when I can buy binkies and burp cloths and diapers, yes-even diapers, again. Every time I go downstairs to do laundry (which is often) I walk by our "baby storage."  I wonder if I will be able to use these beloved items again.  I want to know the scent of baby skin and stroke my newborn's head again.  I want to hear the first giggle and watch the first steps.  We've been trying for almost a year for a second child and it is just not happening.  I often wonder what God wants for our family.  And then today...I finally cried.

Then, there are the people who make casual comments about how it must be time for Hannah to have a little sister or brother.  I know they mean no harm by it and it is a very common thing to say, especially when they probably imagine we want another child.  I usually respond by saying, "We're trying" and then get a blank stare.  No one knows what to say and I don't even know what I want to hear.  I think that is why most people don't ask me about it.  It has become a very lonely journey.

One of the worst times is at church when I go to pick Hannah up from nursery. Everyone else – and it is everyone else – has at least a number two, and I feel like such an outsider. They swap stories about the trials of having more than one child and my heart aches.   I suppress my sadness and try to offer a sympathetic ear.

Please don't think that I am not grateful for the beautiful, sweet, healthy, fun daughter that God has already gifted us.  I hope this blog attests to how much I absolutely adore Hannah.  It's just that I don't feel like my family is complete.  I have a hole in my heart that longs for another child.

We don't know what the Lord's plan is, yet we remain hopeful.  I will be visiting the doctor next month to try to figure out what may be going on.  We pray that the Lord reveals His plan for our family and helps us to grow more dependent on Him.  If you feel led, please pray for us during this difficult journey.

When the Rain Comes (click here)

The Friday Five: TV Shows

Kara:
1.  Lost
2.  The Office
3.  Everybody Loves Raymond
4.  Anything on HGTV
5.  Dirty Jobs

Hannah:
1.  Dora and Diego
2.  WonderPets
3.  Thomas
4.  Mickey Mouse Clubhouse
5.  Veggie Tales

Caleb:
1.  Lost
2.  The Office
3.  Parks and Recreation
4.  Anything on Discovery
5.  Anything on Fox News

The Friday Five: Favorite Springtime Activities

1.  Playing on the playground

2.  Drawing notes and pictures for daddy on the driveway with sidewalk chalk














3.  Bike rides

4.  Picnics at the park

5.  Picking up sticks (including the neighbors' yards when ours runs out)

Growing Girl

I took Hannah in to the doctor for a weight check today (the doctor had recommended that we do so at 2 1/2 yrs).  The great news is that she seems to be averaging out and the doctor was very happy with her weight gain!

Weight-->  28 lbs (39th percentile)
Height-->  36.3" (57th percentile)
Head Circumference-->  20" (96th percentile)

She's gained 3 pounds and 2 inches since September.  And her head...well, it's still big :)

The Friday Five

My friend, Sarah, had a really fun idea to do a "Friday Five" on her blog each week.  Copying is the best form of flattery and I love the idea so here we go:

 Favorite Snacks of 2010

Springing into Spring!

Happy Easter!